I do not understand what God is trying to teach me. It has been a rough year! Moving, miscarriage, lay-off, another lay-off, another miscarriage; and I have a desire to know what God is doing through all of this. But, it is not for me to know right now (if ever!).
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
I memorized this verse a long time ago. I think I always focused on the trusting and acknowledging parts that will lead to straight paths. Recently, I read it, and "lean not on your own understanding" just jumped out at me. (Probably because I have been trying desperately to understand what God is doing!)
"I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the LORD." Psalm 40:1-3
When I tell my kids to wait patiently, I also expect them to wait quietly. This Psalm sounds like the psalmist is waiting patiently, but maybe not so quietly? So, while I will wait patiently for the LORD, I will continue to cry out to Him, trusting that He will give me a firm place to stand and a new song in my mouth.
"As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the LORD is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in him. For who is God besides the LORD? And who is the Rock except our God? It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect." Psalm 18:30-32
So, God's way is perfect. I don't need to lean on my own understanding, but I do need to trust in the LORD. And I will patiently wait for Him!
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Hi Jen! I didn't know you had a blog. I didn't know you had a 2nd miscarriage, and I didn't know you were headed back east. Psalm 40 is my favorite...I know you will continue to praise God through your trials, and I pray that He favors you with a glimpse of His big picture. Hang in there!
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